Still doesn't feel real.. Doubt that it ever will.. Her physical self is gone.. No more: ×Smoking blunts and laughing so hard that we cry. Everyone watching us wondering, "What the hell is wrong with them?" ×Hearing you TRYING to sing.. ×Calling her when I need her because our little sister, mom, and dad don't agree with me, knowing damn well she will. ×Fighting over the dumbest shit ever! Just to turn around and tell you how much I love your crazy self. We were 18 months apart. Enemies. Best friends. Soul mates.. (*it doesnt always mean a lover.*) Big sisters. Onry as fuck. Her babies, now 7 and 8.. Lost their Momma.. They miss her HORRIBLY.. How the fuck could they not??? Little girls. The one person they loved the most.. ripped away from them because of what.. 1. Greed. 2. Drugs. 3. Twisted friendships. 4. He said She said drama. 5. "Ride or die" best friend.. Left her ass and rode the fuck outta dodge.. My middle sister. My best friend. My "Runaway Train".. You opened up a side of me that I never knew existed.. I know you are here with me. But not physically being able to see you.. Dude.. its the hardest fucking thing EVER!
