I lost my dad 3/24/2025 he was 75 years old. I miss him so much he had heart issues like would go into Afib and they would regulate him again this was going on for a few years . October 2024 he had some thyroid issues and they like heart blockages and needed surgery they wanted to get thyroid under control before they did they surgery he ended up being scheduled for a triple bypass heart surgery Dec 5th 2024 the surgeon ended up doing a quadruple bypass instead and also an ablation. It seemed after he was doing pretty good for a little bit but in the end of January he was cleared to drive and was happy about that he had started cardiac rehab and it seemed to go okay as time went on he did start getting depressed not really wanting to do much and got pretty moody any time I tried to help him he said I was treating him like a child and I always made sure I set him up with his meds and always made sure I told him I loved him made sure to ask if he needed things before i would go to bed i didnt want to take his independence away it was tough . There was stuff the doctor would say and he withheld some information he didnt want to eat certain foods because they were too bland or tasted like garbage didnt want to use his inhaler I just know he didn't want to live like that the surgery definitely changed him. I know he still had some issues going on with his heart and lungs he refused the day he passed to go to the hospital and i said lets at least figure this out i feel you are dehydrated or something he said no no im fine im okay he was in and out of sleeping and when i walked downstairs to do laundry he let out this loud snore and i came upstairs to check on him and he was like a grayish color i called 911 right away and they tried to revive him for like 30 mins to 45 minutes but they were unsuccessful. But I always feel like I should have done more and i always wanna know before he passed if he knew how much he was loved I miss him so much and so do my kids. Im sorry im not the best with words I am just trying to say what plays in my head alot. I am in therapy, me and my brother do not have a relationship since my dad passed and him being greedy. I would give anything to talk to him again. I write letters daily and since father's day is coming up im taking it hard. Thank you for reading!
