How can I go on ? My beautiful husband died today…

My husband of 41 years died today. I am a strong Believer in Jesus so I know where he is but my heart feels so broken. We have never been apart ever. He has been always healthy and never drank or smoked in his life but a few months ago he didn’t feel good and found out he had four huge tumors in his chest between the heart and lungs. They were certain it would be treatable but the biopsy came back March 16 and said it was terminal with no hope to cure and too late to do anything anyway - they gave him less than 6 months and on 6 weeks he was gone. I know I must continue on and I know the deeply negative thoughts are wrong and I know Jesus can be strong where I am weak - but I DONT know how to go on. I really don’t. We have the best marriage and he was going to retire next year. He just turned 61 and he is gone. I am lost without him.

 

It doesn't feel like it now, but you will. I will never tell you that it gets better, but I PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE you that it wwill get softer.