3 deaths in 3 months is too much

I'm new here.
I lost my momma January 11, 2025. My husband of 15+ years passed 9 days later on Inauguration day. On March 7th I had to have my cat of 16+ years put to sleep.

I am lost. I'm numb. I want to help my daddy with his grief because they had a fairy tale soulmate kind of love even after 50 years.

Having trouble adjusting to being ALONE.

 

My wife passed away in August of 2025 from stage 4 ovarian cancer. It snuck up on her and took her in very short time. She was my friend, my soulmate, my lover, and my everything. 38 years of marriage and her helping me to be a better person. In December 2025, my mom passed away, and in March 2026 I lost my mother-in-law. It's been an incredibly hard last 8 months.

It's hard to say that it gets better it just gets different. You slowly heal but it takes time. Things will never be the same , it will be different and sometimes difficult.
Your loved ones would want you to continue on. To try to make a difference and help people. That is what my wife taught and even after her passing continues to teach me as the challenges pile up.


I found a poem by an unknown author that sums it up.

It didn’t kill me, but something changed,
A piece of me lost, forever estranged.
I walked away, yet not the same,
A shadowed soul, a quiet flame.
That day took part of who I was,
Left me searching, without cause.
I carry on, but feel the void,
A heart once whole, now destroyed.
It didn’t end me, but I’m not whole—
An echo remains, deep in my soul.
I’m here, I breathe, but truth denied—
A part of me, that day, quietly died.

Author Unknown

Just know there are a lot of us that have been through these unfair and difficult times. Part of the healing process is to help others going through the pain. Just know there are a lot of us out there that know what you are going through. And you have our thoughts and prayers.