Lost my brother without any warning

I lost my brother aged 68, in 2022 without any prior warning he was unwell. One day he just went into his garage and hung himself, leaving no note for his siblings or mother. I had to tell my 98 year old mother her son had died by his own hand. She never recovered after that and in 2024, we lost her to dementia and a broken heart.

My brother has a family, 2 adult daughters and a wife, they were left a note, but have given us no indication of why he took his own life.

I have never come to terms with this death and from that time forwards, we have had multiple deaths, diagnosis of prostate cancer for my hubby, lost my beloved 13 year old dog and life has been difficult. I have just been diagnosed with depression and possible fibromyalgia caused through my losses. It's hard and at the moment I am struggling with physical as well as emotional pain.

Sorry to be on a downer, just one of those days. ❤️

 

I am so very sorry for your losses and for your pain. These have been very difficult things to deal with. It is hard to come to terms with a suicidal death, but it is possible to go on. I had to completely depend on God during the time in which we had lost our son. He was the only dependable source of help for me. I just kept waiting for him to help me, I knew no one else could, and He did.
Very sorry for your suffering.
Sending understanding, love and hugs,
Chris

 

When your in this much pain it is necessary to seek help as would a broken femur. Doctors know what will give you a temporary boost while you take therapy to control and channel your thoughts. Ver batum you would need a leg cast and remain immobile for some time before attempting walking again.
It's okay. It's necessary.... Most humans unfortunately reject psychology & philosophy. You don't have to suffer this much. I know you want to, and don't worry, you will. But let's lessen it as much as possible. You deserve life. You deserve to enjoy the people you love. And most importantly you deserve to "be a downer" as much as you want and be heard! That's a step for moving forward. God bless.