Missing my mom

My mom was my best friend. My mom was sick for a while and no one could tell is what was going on with her until February 2026 when we were told she had stage 4 colon cancer and stomach cancer and was sent home in hospice. I sat there by her side for two weeks and watched her take her last breath. That day my whole world stopped and I am struggling on how to move on in life without her. We learn in life how to live with our mom but don't get taught how to live without her. I miss her every second of the day.

 

I lost my mother 2 years ago. She was my best friend as well. She died of emphysema, Stage 4. Doctors never noticed it until it was too late. I watched her take her last breath as I held her right hand in mine. I just thought about how beautiful her hands still were, as she turned cold. I stayed longer than I probably should have but she was my lifeline, or so I felt. My life has kind of fallen apart since then with more deaths in our family. I constantly feel like god hates me for some reason. Maybe there was an afterlife that I had been a bad person and I'm just now getting karma for it lol IDK... Nothing is ever certain. I miss my people and the person I use to be. I'm trying, as I'm sure you are too, to just get back to normal. Thats what society expects of us, right? But anyway, I'lll end this for now. Reply if you'd like best wishes for you Hun!

 

I feel the same way. Last year I lost my best friend who was like my sister, my uncle who helped raise me and now my mom. I ask myself everyday what did I do wrong. To top this all off my husband is sick as well with cirrhosis of the liver and is not doing well. My mom always told me God doesn't give you what you can't handle but this is to much for me to handle. I also stayed by my mom's side until her last breath even though hospice told me I should leave because she was not going to pass with me there. I made her a promise to stay next to her until her last breath and I did. I feel like my world is over without her