Lost my dad when I was 12, I’m now 19 and still feel like there’s a piece missing from my life

I lost my dad to a long struggle with cancer when I was 12 and it’s been 7 years, now 19, and still think about how much I miss him every single day and I just want to be able to live life without the constant struggle of him not being here, any little bits of advice or comfort anyone can give/ tell me is much appreciated because I just want to feel happy again after all this time. If anybody can even tell me some of the things my dad would’ve told me during puberty/ growing up that would be much appreciated to I.e how to properly shave, tie a tie. Anything like that would be very helpful as I’m still trying to learn these things. Thank you

 

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I feel your pain. I lost my mom when I was 12, her father went 3 weeks later. This set off a chain reaction from my father. He basically became a functioning alcoholic for his next 35 years, alienating friends and family, and I was left to run the house after his 2nd marriage failed 3 years later, 3 younger siblings who didnt want to listen to me while my father was in a bar. Add to that, I had trouble in school. All of this is because my father engaged in classic self destructive behavior after those two deaths, which I made it my business not to repeat when my better half passed 10 years ago. And yes, I miss my mom, my grandfather and my g/f (32 years, don't judge) more than anything.

I created a picture in my mind of them all sitting in a living room talking.