Watched everyone die one after another

Hurting 2019 I lost my cousin celina my best friend
Right before that my aunt but after that my cousin Tony and I started watching my cousins just die my cousin Rudy cousin Hannah Uncle Michael Uncle Eddie My cousin Eddie Stanley to Jay my niña my grandma my dad my brother my cousins shay

Worst part my brother was killed in the room next to me and my kids he was killed by my cousin/god brother and if I checked when I felt it I could have saved him but I didn't check thought I was being paranoid that and my dad was the hardest still is I need my brother all the time same with my dad I miss everyone so much after they died then I was kicked out of my house I ended up moving in a tent pregnant and my kids and now I've lost my kids lost my home lost everything and I became an alcoholic after he died they died I just recently quit and I'm going into a program on the 19th this is all from I passed and from the all the loss