When does it get better

Hi George, I loved my Mom, she just never let go of grudges, and she really hated the fact I grew up and she lost her hold on me. I think society only F's up people that want to be F'd up, just my opinion. Hey, everyone has their own likes about music, movies, tv, politics, etc. if everyone liked the same thing, what a boring world it would be. Growing up my Granny and I did enjoy watching tv together, all 3 channels, . Take care George, "talk" again soon. Savannah

 

Savannah, you made me laugh with
"bat poop crazy". Hard to believe, but once
upon a time, young women screamed over
a very young, skinny Frank Sinatra. I liked
his sad. slow ballads, like Cycles, It Was a
Very Good Year, Love's Been Good to Me.
When I want to kick my ass out the door in
the am, I sing to My Way and That's Life. I saw most of those Vietnam movies, too, &
found them depressing. I never understood why we were there. It wasn't
WWII, with enemies who wanted to
conquer the world, and destroy the U.S.
I heard many of those songs, too. I also
liked Johnny Cash. Like many on GIC, I
couldn't listen to ANY song without
weeping about Linda. When Cash sang a
mournful. angry song about San Quentin,
I cried, bc I was in a prison of grief. One
morning, I decided to play Hootchie
Cootchie Man, by Muddy Waters, on my
phone, bc I liked the blues beat& his
sassy words & tone. I had played that
before I met Linda. When we were dating,
we went to both blues and comedy
clubs. I'm looking out at huge snow drifts&
snowplowsl No other cars. Glad it's Sat,
bc schools are closed & a lot of people
aren't working. Hope Miss Kitty gives you
a chance to rest. Lou

 

Oh no Lou, I remember that day. You said it was sunny and wanted to get out. I remember telling you to bundle in layers snd be careful. I’m speaking for Linda, please DO NOT go anywhere, no where without your phone. Things happen, but you need to be able to call for help. I’m glad your nurse has been very supportive. I know you were weak but I think you fell because it was icy. Please have your phone with you at all times. This comes from love not being pushy. I don’t even go from one room to another without putting my phone in my pocket. So glad you weren’t hurt.
How’s the snow by you? Still snowing here and the wind has gotten stronger. My driveway is waiting. But I had to shovel for ted again. And probably will have to again. Feels like -5 out there I don’t want to be out there. Ted doesn’t either. I think it’s supposed to stop soon. I sure hope so. I have like 18”. I don’t want more. People are going down the road on snow mobiles. Few cars. And the plows went all night but not seeing them much today. I feel like I’ll never get out it’s so deep. Take care and keep your phone with you. Please. Robin

 

Thank you, Robin. Don't worry. I won't be
walking outside, even with a phone. I'm
not fully recovered. Sometimes, I'm
delusional and think I'm younger than I am. I won"t go into all the details of why
I was in the ER in the middle of night,
but I did mention that they had to put me
on an IV, bc I was dehydrated & lost
interest in food. Now, I have a support
system & will see doctor on Thurs, the 3rd.

Snowplow all night & today. No other
cars. I saw one couple walking their dog.
& felt bad for them. If we can just get through tonight, it's supposed to be
sunny, though very cold, tomorrow.High
snowdrifts & a lot of blowing, so the
weatherman hasn't said how many
inches we got, There is a kind couple, about 50. who live above me, in our
apartment bldg. He texted to ask if I
needed anything, but I have a friend, who's
like a daughter to me, & she brings me
groceries & meds. She is my emergency
contact, whenever I go to the hospital. The
neighbor upstairs tried to shovel. but he
had to do the same area twice. Not
worth it. Glad it's Sunday tomorrow,
at least. Lou

 

Ok Lou, I’m glad you’ll be more careful and stay put for now. I’ve had to shovel twice for Ted. I’m hoping what I did will be enough to get him out one more time without needing to shovel. I hurt my shoulder the last time I cleared his path and I’m not sure I can do it again. I’m glad you have people offering to help you get supplies. I know Kim is a great help and wonderful friend. I’m glad tomorrow’s Sunday too. I’m hoping my daughter can get here tomorrow to help clear my driveway. Robin

 

Hi Lou, Well I did a dumb thing. I had parts of a song running through my head, typed in the words, song name is "What Will I Do" found lots of recording artist that had covered it, I liked Patti Page the best. Frank Sinatra also did it, his was a bit slower. I couldn't stop there, had to look up more sad songs, Hurt, Johnny Cash, Can't Get Use to Losing You, Andy Williams, Always Something There to Remind Me, Dionne Warwick, Always on My Mind, Willie Nelson and the one with Willie and Bon Jovi, not a good idea, but did have a good cry. I sometimes think I punish myself with sad songs, sad movies, knowing I will end up being a puddle of tears.
I like piano and guitar blues, Ted was a 40's, 50's music lover. The Platters, Johnny Mathias, Nat King Cole, Bing Crosby, Peter, Paul, and Mary, Joni Mitchell, etc. I can listen and appreciate just about all music. Not a huge fan of Country, Dolly, Willie, do have songs I like. I kind of remember The Porter Wagner Show, and Hee Haw, my Dad loved that show, The Grand Ole Opry, I didn't much care for them, but Hee Haw was funny. I always look forward to catching Father Knows Best, The Donna Reed Show, Bewitched, Leave It To Beaver, on AntTv and on MeTv.
Time to tune into reruns of The Golden Girls, take care, stay safe and warm. "talk" again tomorrow. Savannah

 

Savannah,sorry you had a "puddle of
tears". It will make you feel better to
know that doesn't happen to me now. I
listen to any song I'm in the mood for. We liked Bewitched. with the first husband,
Dick York.

. Linda wished she could be like
Samantha ( Elizabeth Montgomery) and
wiggle her nose, to whisk us away on a
trip. Liked the Beaver when I was
growing up, bc he was about my age. Later
on I realized it was ridiculous that his
mother would vacuum in a nice dress &
pearl necklace. Both the father, Ward
Cleaver
and the father in Father Knows
Best, were always reading newspapers.
Like Ted. Linda loved the music of the 50s
& early 60s & knew all the lyrics. Out
favorite Golden Girls character , was Bea Arthur's short mother. She
always had her bag, like Queen of
England. The winds have died down & the
worst is over. Cold, but sunny tomorrow.
Going to bed now. Hope you have pleasant
dreams. Lou
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Be careful shoveling, Robin! You could
fall. Do you bring your phone? Can't
you pay a kid to do it? I say this out of
love. Haha.Winds have died down.
Sunny tomorrow. Going to bed now.
Pleasant dreams. Lou

 

I don’t go anywhere without my phone. So yea I did have it. I only shovel a small path in my back yard for Teddy. Sleep well

 

Good to heat

 

Good to hear, Robin! Went to bed early,
which I''ve been doing since hospital. Saw
your reply just now, Thank you. My
concern was your shoulder. Does it still
hurt ? A friend of mine pulled a
shoulder muscle, either from his dog,
yanking him with the leash, or the way
he slept. He had to have cortisone shots, &
now had PT. But, if you feel OK, that
won't be necessary. I certainly learned
my lesson, falling on an unseen patch of
ice. Hope it's sunny for you on Sun, like it
is supposed to be here. Lou

 

Was doing way better Friday then the massive mood crash at dialysis. Always cold but horrified hearing about all the snow. Ours is coming Tuesday into Wednesday. Then more arctic air. Winter never ends. Got a loaner car so I can get to the D. Hope everyone's doin' ok or better ...

 

George, I know you're depressed about
winter. I try not to look at the season as
one block. We just had a major overnight
snowstorm last night. Didn't lose power.
Bright sunshine & blue skies today, which
lift my spirits. I live in an apartment.
My upstairs neighbor knows I've had
serious medical issues. He is digging us
out from the high drifts. I told him that
my VNA nurse and PT need to come in
the front door, and he will make sure to
shovel the steps. When I first came here, I
did some shoveling, too, but not this year.
If we're lucky, we will just have this one
snowstorm, like we did last year. We had
some very cold days, but, I wore layers,
& wore a warm jacket with hood. Glad you
have loaner car.Wish it were for something more fun. Lou

 

George,

Like Lou said, I'm glad you have a loaner car, but wish it was for doing something fun. Mr. Grief's twisted amusement park SUCKS BIG TIME!!!, TU!!! The constant up and downs on his twisted roller coaster get are way over the top exhausting... Just "keep on keeping," I think I'm adopting one of Gary's sayings. Spring will be here so soon... Keep thinking sunshine, blue skies, warmth, birds, flowers, etc. etc. etc.... WE CAN AND WILL GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER!!!

I wish so much I could pack up and send some of this warmth (it might hit the mid fifties today, a major heatwave compared to what Mother Nature has given you) and sunshine. Every GW would be receiving a giant box...

Hope today you have at least one reason to LMSO, but hoping for more than one...

As always, sending you hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Lou,

So glad you finally have blue skies and sunshine... Weather has such a major effect on all of our moods. Think SPRING!!! Remember: Daydreaming can be a very good thing..." (I think this one is beginning to grow a bit stale, but it hasn't reached that if it were bread, it would break a tooth point yet.)

So glad you have a good upstairs neighbor. It can make all the difference in the world. Stay inside, stay warm, stay safe today...

As always, sending you hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Robin,

Thinking of you today... So sorry you hurt your shoulder having to shovel during the storm. I hope you're feeling lots better... I hope your daughter is able to clear your driveway for you today too. This is too late to help with this storm (didn't think of this yesterday, foggy widow brain sucks!!!), but calcium chloride won't damage concrete. I forget the name of the brand Bob and I used to buy, but you can put it down prior to a storm, to help keep driveways, front walkways, steps, etc. from becoming icy nightmares. I did a quick google search, but didn't find the exact product we used. However, I think we got it at either Walmart or Sam's Club. I think it was a bit pricey, but well worth it. I used tons of it to doing my best to keep Bob and a widower, very frail from cancer treatments, who used to live next door to us, safe.

I hope the sun is out today, the storm has passed, and you and Teddy have as good a day as possible.

As always, sending you and Teddy lots of hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Deb, Thank you so much. In my research I saw which kind I needed to have. Every store around here was sold out of every kind of salt but I plan to try to find some to have on hand. I appreciate you researching for me. My daughter is on her way over right now. She lucked out and while she was shoveling her driveway her neighbor with a snow blower offered to finish it for her. One guy with a blower and one with a shovel and she was done. She did a lot herself first. But nice to know there are good people in the world. I won’t be able to help her much because I pulled something in my shoulder. I’m hoping she can at least make me a path. Ok. She just got here. I’ll update you later. Thank again. Means a lot. Robin

 

Todays just one of those days. Must be patient and wait it out. We are supposed to get snow Tuesday night into Wednesday then more arctic air. Not doin good today. I miss Valerie... duh. what else is new. Drained and tired Dialysis was rough yesterday. Trying to distract myself with a new computer game. Just so tired. Bad sleep with upsetting dreams last night after excruciating pain from sitting in the D chair. You seem better and I'm glad for that! Take care!

 

George, you've had a perfect storm of
crap lately: mourning Valerie, awful,
cold, depressing weather, & dialysis.
I am feeling better, but have to learn not
to be impatient, not to walk outside right
now. Have to see doctor on Thurs, but I'm
staying inside until then. A VNA nurse and
PT are coming,ona regular basis, to my
apartment. I ageed to do simple
exercises,since I can't walk outside. I was
happy to reach Brother Gary tonight, &
that he replied to me. He hopes to be back
in GIC with us soon. Lou

 

Grief is exhausting.
It’ll be 3 months on tuesday. I feel like it’s been forever, maybe the energy drain of the last years, maybe the tears. Whatever it is I want to sit down and never get up. ~Bernadine