Wednesday ART THERAPY

This evening, I tried to watch a comedy film which I normally would have laughed at so much two years ago. I just sat there and found that although there were extremely funny scenes, that 'laughter' emotion was just completely absent in me. I didn't even smile.

 

Rose. I'm so sorry to hear that you
couldn't even smile. I remember being
like that. You can't force it, and have to
wait until the time is right. Other GW
still have trouble listening to music,
without sobbing, but you've passed that
hurdle. Everyone is different. Lou

 

So true! I have no sense of humor or patience for entertainment since Valerie died.

 

Rose, I'm there too. Emotion is absent. What Lou said is true, we can't force it. I'm still finding it hard to find contentment, joy and happiness.

 

Like Lou said, he's been there and you can't force it. Yes, it's true for me too no sense of humor or patience. I guess it's all a part of this horrid journey. K

 

Karen, you may have no patience, but I
KNOW you have a sense of humor. I know
it's a small thing, but you said you were
"tickled" by nicknames like Debster and
Louster, all started by George, who doesn't
realize he's funny, but he is. I usually
make other people laugh, before I laugh
myself., Lou

 

Well, you're right I guess I do have a sense of humor, but it only comes out here. It seems to be missing elsewhere. And maybe George doesn't realize he has it too at least on GW's.

 

I just don't find "comedy" funny anymore...

 

Good morning, Ms. Hum. I woke up this
morning, battling with Cato, my new
nickname for Mr. Grief, after the
character who attacks Inspector Clouseau
( Peter Sellers) in the Pink Panther
movies. I realize you , George , & Rose
can't watch comedies right now, but if
you Google Cato , you'll see what I mean.
The new nickname takes the edge off Mr.
Grief, for me. I liked the Center for Loss
quote today, that mourning is grief in
motion. I agree, bc I kicked my sorry ass
out the door today.........Louster

 

Lou, I remember very well those hilarious scenes in the Clouseau films. The fact is that these particular films, along with Ben Stillers' Meet the Parents saga, are amongst many of my C's favourite American comedy films. Apart from the problem I have of not being able to laugh at any type of funny sketch, I just cannot bring myself to watch all these movies which had us in fits of laughter together, all the way through. It would just hurt me so much, I would end up in tears instead of laughing.

I hope you have a good sunny day.

Rose.

 

La Rose, I understand only too well.
Actually, I decided not to have a TV this
year, or watch whole movies. Like Ms.
Mum said about herself, I don't have the
patience. I get everything on my Smart
Phone, incl movie clips, funny or not.
Lately, I've been watching scenes from
Western gunslinger movies. I identify with
the good guy, fighting evil men who want
to kill him. I can't let Mr. Grief kill me. Lou

 

I have seen all the Clouseau movies. I know exactly what scene you were referencing too. Here's some Tuesday art...

 

I’ve been reading and catching up a little bit. I understand everyone’s emotions and thoughts on watching comedy’s or anything for that matter. The Clouseau movies bring such memories, we would laugh so hard. I can't look at those or any show that was a favorite of Rons. Forged in Fire comes to mind. Haven’t watch a single one. Ron was a huge Star Trek fan, original of coarse. I’ve tried watching some of those movies. It’s been so hard. Ron had TV on constantly. Because he’s not here to watch I don’t have my tv on until the evening. I watch shows that we didn’t watch. I find mindless ones so I don’t have to process too much while it’s on. Laughing comes hard, but I have had moments where it just naturally happens and it does feel ok.
Hope everyone is having a nice day. After days of rain it’s pretty nice out today. Spent time in my yard getting it ready for winter. And found these flowers blooming. Robin

 

Louster, Ms. Mum.

 

Rose, I completely cut myself off from tv and radio when Cheryl transitioned. I would listen to the radio intermittently while driving provided there were no sad songs. I do pt daily and started watching PBSKids cartoons. There are 2 particular shows; Daniel Tigers Neighborhood and Donkey Hoodie. The characters are very compassionate and supportive of each other. I consider these part of my grief support team. I need to see and feel love and compassion.Sometimes I am able to cultivate an atmosphere where I experience my beloved Cheerful Cheryl’s presence. I have a figurine that resembles Cheryl in her youth. We watch music videos together on my phone. I position the figurine so I can see Cheryl’s reflection on the screen and Cheryl comes to life. Lately we’ve been watching Sade. It is a wide stretch of the imagination. I do it right before bedtime. It helps with loneliness and the feeling that Cheryl hasn’t been gone long. I drove to deer camp early Sunday morning and noticed the star constellation Orion. It seemed more near. I saw the moon rise about a hour later then it appeared in my rear view mirror. I felt connected to the Universe and those who reside in the afterlife by those observations. Believe me I’m not like that very often. Our imagination, connection with nature, and close friends and family keep us moderately stimulated enough to keep stumbling forward. Gary

 

Ms.Mum, did you have more to say to
me? Louster

 

Are you teasing. I'm Ms. Hum.

 

Oh, crap, you got me,Karen, MS.HUM!!!
My excuse is 3 days in a row with no
sunshine, and I'm feeling slow and tired.
I was referring to you , to Rose, that like
you, I have less patience. You're a lot
sharper than I am today !!! Louster

 

Got to keep you on your toes, even in lousy weather.

 

Thank you, Karen, you're a pal.... Lou