So Alone

so how do deal the emptyness

 

i am finding the quietness very sad

 

Brother George, sorry I'm so
late in joining your "talk"with
Robin and Rose. Hope your
Mon is better than your Sun
was. If I'm not careful, the reverse could be true for me.
There was a picture perfect
80 degree day, with brilliant
sunshine &blue sky. You are
right , George, that I keep dancing. but you can't. Yesterday,
a band played outside & we
danced in front of it, which
pleased the musicians, as well as
us. Little children danced
alongside us, uninhibited, and
we smiled and gave them fistbumps.Today is gloomy.
gray, with threat of rain. Not
sure Mon rock band concert
will be held . Tomorrow looks
worse. so concert may have to
be postponed 'til next Tues. Lou

 

yes instead of we its me.

 

hi van gogh/ i friends with george. chat with me somtime, comp is always on/

 

Lou I'm just so tired... tired of depression and grief and being alone. I just have no energy.. Yesterday had a nice conversation with fellow GW Kelso... Definitely reach out to him if you get the chance. I don't know what's wrong with me these days I just can't seem to pull it together. I am so tired... tired of trying but never seeming to get anywhere but back into this blank pit of nothingness. I feel so disconnected from everything. Another cloudy damp humid day here. I need to go out but can't get the energy up at all... Don't mean to be such a mess... sorry

 

I finally got the energy to get on GIC. I appreciate your kind and thoughtful message... I just can't seem to pull myself together lately. I just feel so emotionally depleted.

 

Just have to second by second, minute by minute, hour after hour... I woke up incredibly depressed and disconnected today... Got to keep trying ... I don't feel like I know sht today so far... gotta get out, but do not want to

 

call me george i am here ALL day

 

been cryin for 45 min now. i gota stop

 

George0

George, when I was in a small
psychiatric unit during
Thanksgiving, 2018, right
after Linda died suddenly and
shockingly in front of me, I was
all alone. My "family" were the
8 other temporary residents
there . We had counselor led
meetings. At the last one, the
counselor asked each one of us to state our goals upon discharge . All of us said, "to help other people" . You are
doing that, Geo, when you
reached out to Kelso. At your
request, I'll gladly do the same. About to go to sleep,
and hope you can, too. Lou

 

Kelso, George, my "brother"from Illinois, suggested I contact you .
I see by your info that you're 68,
and live in Pennsylvania. I just
turned 74, and live in
Massachusetts. My wife, Linda,
died over 4 & a half years ago,
but I didn't join this site 'til 2
years ago. Is Kelso your real
first name? May I ask the name of your wife, to honor her
memory? I chose Van Gogh, a
tortured soul ( like I was when my wife died), but please call
me Lou. It's 11 pm , my time,
and I have to go to sleep. "Talk"
tomorrow.,... Lou

 

hi lou no thats my last name/bruce is my first.terry was/is my wife. sorry for your loss of linda.

 

Bruce, happened to wake up from a dream in the middle of
the night and checked GIC before I go back to sleep . Thank you for your post, regarding
your name. and Terry's. I'm
about to Start a Conversation
with you, so that we may call
each other outside of GIC. I do
that with 3 widows and 2 widowers here. Back to
sleep,...,Lou

 

anybody hee today

 

Yes, Bruce, did you see my
personal message on your
"So Alone" thread, which you
wrote early this am? I found
out that your first name is
Bruce, not Kelso. I told you I
preferred to be called Lou,
rather than user name of Van
Gogh, which I used 2 years ago,
to join Grief in Common ( GIC).
I'm retired, so I can reply to
your posts when I can, but my
responses will be quicker with
private emails or texts, like I do
with a few others here. Lou

.

 

3 widows nice

 

chat lou ?

 

another nothin day i miss her sooooo much

 

We can text, Bruce. Going out ,
so can't talk on phone right now.
My phone:
(978) 559-9571
email address:
zimonlouis5@gmail.com
Thanks, Bruce.
Lou