Lately I have been rather withdrawn and just flat out miserable. That did change a bit when last week I was able to throw a leg over a Harley and get back to riding. And I did. I put about 300 miles on the wide glide in a few days. Today I am really feeling the loss of my wife and very sadly wondering what she went through between the 8th of March and the 16th. I know I was by her bedside everyday half in tears, and holding her right hand, kiss- ing her, brushing or petting The top of her hair. If I thought I was sad then, I had no idea how much sadder I would be when I was told she was not likely to make it through this. I guess one can never really think or want to think how others can be so rotten to the core. I never met Alex Nicolas or Nicolaus who Works up in Tallahassee Fl. in public records. And I never had anything against him. But for some well known reasons. He decided to 'Rat out' his own sister and her husband for the Soul reason of getting even for not being allowed to be in a phone conference. The hospital, having gotten word of this would now no longer consider me as Sofia's husband. I hurt so badly having lost a dainty and wonderful wife, and wondering if things would have been different if Alex was not such an evil schmuck. He did what he did to get even, not caring what could happen later. I guess I will never know but I know that if God decided to take my dearness, God did not need a snitch to help him... I Guess mood swings are going to be a part of my life for a while.
