Lost my boyfriend

My boyfriend and i were on and off for a year. We experienced so many things.. We forgave each other we hated each other but when we loved we really loved things were looking good for a month and then he died in a car crash two months ago. He's still my every thought every second of the day. I feel guilt anger and so much pain The only thing that would make me feel better is if i was with in the car.

 

Sorry to hear about your boyfriend. Feeling guilt after the loss of a loved one is very common. We often think we could have done something more or regret something we said. I hope you find this site helpful.

 

Thank you. I just wonder does it ever get better because he's all i think about

 

I lost my guy September 1st, 2018. He was only 25, and passed tragically the same way. I haven’t been able to cope well, I so very deeply feel your pain. I am so sorry you are going through this, my soul truly hurts without my best friend here to help me, my only friend. The anger, guilt, regret, and the ideas of our unfinished business absolutely kills me.. I still feel like I’m dying inside and that I shoildbhave been there with/for him. The only advice I can give you, is too take it one day at a time..

 

Thank you .Each day is different some days are okay. Other days the shock and pain knocks you off your feet. The only thing we can do is pray. With prayer comes hope and where there's hope there's life

 

Thank you, because I still wake up everyday.. wondering how I am going to survive this.

 

Hi Chante,

I can completely relate to your story. I too lost my boyfriend suddenly in a car crash. The short story is that we were out at a bar shooting pool, we had a disagreement and he kissed me and went outside to smoke a cigarette. He decided to leave without telling me. When he didn’t come back and I couldn’t find him, I got angry and texted him some ugly messages.
How much of that he saw I will never know. He was texting me back a text that read “What baby?” When he ran off the road, flipped his truck and was ejected through the windshield, broke his neck and died instantly. This December 10th, will be 2 years since he died. I still think of him constantly and miss him as much today as I did the day he left. People constantly say to me that time heals all wounds. That’s not true. The empty hole of that missing loved one never heals, but the good news is that it does get easier. You never get over it, but you learn how to adjust and live a new kind of life. The pain never goes away, but you learn to live with it and find ways to cope. I personally find that taking my fiancés best qualities, which was helping others, and continung that behavior in his honor helps me.
I hope my story can help you in some small way.
Sending thoughts, hugs and prayers to you.

 

P.S. The guilt is the hardest part to cope with.

 

Hi donna
Thank you for your response. Im honestly so sorry for your loss and pain I can totally relate. I don't know what to do and how to cope it's been three months. Can i ask do you think that you'll ever find love again.

 

I recently just got Married, so yes, it will happen. It puts a strain on a new relationship to some degree, but with the right man you will love again and be happy. It won’t change your love for your boyfriend who passed, but you will find a new way to love again. Hang in there....you are going to be ok. ❤️

 

Thank you so so much and congratulations im so happy you found love again.

 

You are very welcome If I could give any advice at all, it would be to grieve in your own way, at your own pace. Never let anyone else tell you that “you should be over that by now”, or “it’s time to move on”.
The time is right to move forward ONLY when YOU decide it is. It’s your pain and your journey. Take it at your pace, not anyone elses.

 

Some days are better than others some times the shock knocks me off my feet. Do you still cry or does that get better too??