Sandra, sorry to hear of your loss. You described it perfect. "Before and "After" I hope you find some comfort by posting on this site.
You are welcome . There is a lot of good people on this site. They have helped me. Lost my husband three years ago. Take it one day at a time. Or one hour at a time.
I lost my husband on July 20. I Understand. I do not know how to go on from this. He was my all. Every minute of every day he is on my mind. All I can say is I understand.