How does one survive this?

Waking up is a battle.
Every morning I tell myself to call into work.
To lay in bed all day. To give up.
How does one survive this?
Made it to work but now i cannot concentrate.
How does one survive this?
Hearing people laugh, seeing people smile, why does this make me angry?
There is nothing to smile about, nothing to be happy about
I have two kids and still I can barely live
I can say it is unfair
I have every right to say it

 

Yes you do have every right to be feeling the way you feel. It’s ok to. I know I feel that way a lot. I’m not sure when it gets better, hopefully soon. I do pray it gets easier for you. Having two children makes you keep on going. My grown kids and grandchildren keeps me going. I’m so sorry for your loss.

 

Sorry to read this. I feel like I’m walking through Jello, everything feels heavy and unreal, harder to do, feels like a wall between me and everything else, but not really like looking through glass. My thoughts are slower and harder to think through things. I lost my husband 2 months ago and it’s scary to imagine that my son is counting on me for everything now. It’s overwhelming. My son said the other day “it’s like right now we’re just learning how to SURVIVE without Daddy. “ so, yeah, you have a right. It’s totally valid.