Diving deeply into Grief as a Teacher

Is anyone here actively looking for ways to engage with grief as a teacher? It has been only 8 weeks since my husband dies suddenly from a heart attack. We worked throughout out nearly thirty years to create a conscious relationship to the unseen ‘Third’ ( think Rumi’ idea of ‘We are Three’) which means for me that while I am learning to navigate a life without him and the physical withdrawal symptoms and social and cultural adjustments...I am wanting to stay awake through this journey rather than numb or distract myself from it. I started blogging on FB https://m.facebook.com/https://m.facebook.com/wisecracksblog/
Anybody else looking in this direction???

 

I might be, in that after four
months, I am still very much
in love with my departed wife
and as much as my loneliness
hurts me, I do not want to be
a walking zombie like a
creature from Alpha Centauri.
I want to keep Sofia in my ❤
and remember as much of
our times together as possible.

I have no real idea on what
part of grief's road I am on
Still feels like shock and
denial to a lesser extent I
guess.

I ended up going back to
New England and have
gotten settled and tho
doing all right in some ways
I am not far from a mess in
other ways and I suppose it
will take a good length of
time to really get through
this.

But for a phone call from her
brother, a narcistic bastard,
Working in state gov. Public
records, Alex Panigotacos,
for his own rotten and maybe
greedy reasons called the
hospital and told them we
were not legally married.
We had a committal service
and were in God's eyes,
husband and wife. Other-
wise I could still have my
wife and would have been
by her side lovingly everyday.

Alex, you have done a very
bad thing, Ratting out your
sister, my wife. I so hope
you get what you deserve