Dakota 12-31-2018

December 31, 2018....New Years Eve...my life changed forever. I got the call that no big sister ever wants to get. My beautiful 26 year old sister, Dakota, was killed in a car crash in Arkansas. I'm sitting at my moms still trying to make sense of it all... Trying to figure out how I might've saved my sister. I keep thinking about November 29 when she begged me to video call, but I was on the phone with a friend. I never imagined that might be the last time I ever got asked to video chat. I should've made more time for her. All she wanted was time...and attention. My beautiful sister is now laying in the funeral home awaiting her cremation tomorrow morning, and I've lost my last chance to tell my sister how much she means to me. How does one cope with losing their best friend? How do you cope with feeling like a part of your very soul has died? I miss her so so so much.

 

I'm so sad to hear

 

Sorry to hear about your sister. I think many people feel guilty that they should have spent more time with someone or done something to save them. It’s human nature. I felt like that when my mother died suddenly. It is getting better for me and hopefully will be for you too.

 

So sorry to hear someone die so young. My husband died while we were in the middle of a fight. (10/16/18) My only solace is that I asked him if he wanted to FaceTime with our then 7 year old son and they did. I never got to say goodbye or I’m sorry. He died alone at a hotel. I think about that all the time. Guilt doesn’t really help us, but it’s part of this process , I’m told. Hang in there