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What do you do when you're feeling lonely?

Discussion in 'Loss of Spouse' started by David Hughes, Sep 26, 2019.

  1. glego

    glego Well-Known Member

    I'm glad others have chimed in. Micheal, you're very much normal. I too felt like a crazy woman, so many emotions that we're not acquainted with that we think we're going nuts. I remember nearly having a meltdown going to the grocery store the first few times, there were items that I'd get for him and I'd see them on sale and think I should get that for him, then had to think (don't buy it he's gone and you don't like it) or things we both liked that were too large and would go bad. I think I wrote about that early on here. I also read an article on early grief that mentioned grocery stores. The first time it happened I thought I was insane. Nice to know that I'm not, you also aren't, none of us are; this is normal. Only people that haven't experienced it think we're crazy.
     
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  2. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Yes i m so glad I found this site.. I have to say getting feedback and opinions about these feelings and even trying to help others has helped me a lot

    I wish no-one had to feel like. This.. On one hand I miss windy so bad I can't breath..litterally..

    But on the other im happy shes not suffering no more..
    No more doctors.. Medicines..
    Oxygen tubes..
    She's with her mom I know..
    I wanna be happy I just don't know how yet..
    I feel guilty that im still here really..
    Why do I get to live..

    I can see the grocery thing too.
    I would always go and have to call her to make I was getting the rite stuff..
    Caught myself the other day. Started to call and it hit me..
    Hard to..
    Had to set down for a minute
     
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  3. Liley773

    Liley773 Well-Known Member

    Been to the 'feeling nuts' place alot. Especially with these damn panic attacks. Trying to work it out. Video chat with the shrink again Friday. Hopefully he'll adjust med and add more for right now.
     
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  4. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Hope he does ..
    Ive been abke to control mine
    Thank God..
    Have not had one this week
    .im preying for you dear..
    I know its rough..
    Hang In There
     
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  5. Liley773

    Liley773 Well-Known Member

    Ty. Making everything very hard right now. Including sleep.
     
  6. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Oh yes I get that too..
    Maybe 2..to. 3 if I'm lucky 4..to 5 hrs a nite..
    Thats why I told my work well one if the reasons I could not take long trips over a trips...
    Well that and the anxiety attacks.. I was freaking out out at times. Mix that with littlw sleep not good fir a truckdruver...
    So I totally understand you..
     
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  7. glego

    glego Well-Known Member

    Not being able to get to sleep or stay asleep I think is the most common complaint. For me after a couple of nights not sleeping well I end up oversleeping and being groggy the next day.

    Be careful Michael, do you do long hauls or local driving?
     
  8. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    I was doing long haul till a couple months ago when windy first went into thw hospital..
    I just get myself to go that way no more..
    I can't be in this truck that long anymore..
    To to painfull
    My company gas a run im going to be doing to Toledo and back 3 days a week noq

    They ha e really good to me through all this..
    Really good people
     
  9. Liley773

    Liley773 Well-Known Member

    I video chat with the dr today. Let's hope....he can do more.
     
  10. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    I prey he csn help..
    You need rest
     
  11. Liley773

    Liley773 Well-Known Member

    Ty. We'll see. Yes I do. Been years since I've had a good night's sleep.
     
  12. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    I am so sorry to hear that..
    I have my bad nites for sure..
    And driving a truck. The day after a bad nites sleep makes for a missearble day..
    Hope your doctor can help..
     
  13. Liley773

    Liley773 Well-Known Member

    Amen to all you said.
     
  14. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Other than the sleeping problem..
    I hope you are hokding up ok..
     
  15. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Do you have siblings..kids
    . friends close by..someone to talk to or keep you company if you need??
    Here's my cell number if you need to talk or text
    270..980..8205..
    I'll be glad to listen..
     
  16. glego

    glego Well-Known Member

    I wish everyone good sleep tonight. And Michael you drive safe!
     
  17. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    I'm home tonight. For the weekend.. But thank you so much.. And you have a good sleep to..
     
  18. glego

    glego Well-Known Member

    Michael, thank you.
     
  19. Liley773

    Liley773 Well-Known Member

    thank you Michael. You are so sweet. I will keep that #on file. I had a hard day today but am working my way through it. Did much of nothing wasted day but that
    is all I could do. You are so nice. Ty for keeping track of me on this journey. My depression is better with my med but trying to work on the anxiety and video doc can't prescripe what I need because of whatever....video stuff. I sincerely hope that you are doing better yourself and that you aren't risking yourself trying to push through and work those miles. I grew up in a trucking town, Richfield,OH so I do know what it's like....
     
  20. Michael beck

    Michael beck Well-Known Member

    Yes I am trying to .
    Playing with the grandbabys.
    And trying to keep up with what windy used to do as far as paying tue bills and stuff. Kinda gotta learn to do it.
    Windy was always the diligent I e with. The money..
    But ill get my head around it eventually..
    Sometimes doing what your doing is best I found..
    I do that to bunch of things that add up to nothing at the end of the day..but it keeps you busy..
    Please dont let your depression get the best of you.. Your stringer than that and much to live for..
    Stay strong.
    Im here if you need to talk