Today was a hard day. It's been just over a year dince I lost my husband, and not quite 2 months since I lost my son in law. I struggled with the snow shoveling today. The guys were always so quick, and a lot of times we all worked together making it easier. It was rough alone. For more than one reason. I decided to walk afterwards. I went to the cemetery where we always walked because it's peaceful. But my heart was filled with sadness at the beautiful snow covered surroundings, and not having my husband to share it with. Not having anyone to share it with. It felt like I didn't belong here anymore. Like my life is over but I was left behind. Just a hard day. Thanks for reading this.