My older sister was my hero as a little girl and now she is gone. On January 17, 2020 she committed suicide by jumping off a bridge into the Missouri River. I've tried to keep in touch with the state troopers but they haven't called me back in 3 weeks. They haven't found her body so she is considered 'missing' until it is recovered. The search has been off and on because of bad weather. This death came 9 days after the 14 anniversary of the death of our mother. That was also a shock as she was in a car accident. I feel my grief has only just begun. I'm the baby of all my siblings, step, half, even a brother I just found out about. Yet I'm the one in charge of all of her estate and what is to happen to her only child who is 17 years old. I'm doing all this from Illinois and she lived in Missouri. She told her son I didn't want him so that is part of why he doesn't want to stay with my family. I feel like crap, I'm depressed, mad and hurt. The month of January sucks.