Sudden loss and PTSD

Discussion in 'Dating Again After the Loss of a Spouse/Partner' started by Andra, May 19, 2020.

  1. Andra

    Andra New Member

    Hello, I lost my partner in a paragliding accident 3 years ago. The loss was world shattering, as I’m sure everyone here unfortunately understands so well. It took me so long to pick up the pieces of myself and my life after this sudden loss. I am now dating another wonderful man. The problem is I find myself constantly preparing myself to loose him, sometimes wanting to push him away so I don’t have this ‘potential pain’ looming over me. It’s something I have begun to call my ‘disaster brain’, for there’s this little voice in the back of my mind when things are going well now that tells me not to get too comfortable, that more pain is inevitable. I feel like I am unconsciously preparing myself for another loss, and I just can’t shake the feeling. I’m wondering if I am struggling with PTSD symptoms. Is anyone else experiencing something similar that can shed some light? xx