I lost my fiancé (soon to be spouse) very recently suddenly. He was young, full of life. We haven’t even gotten the determination of what caused his passing yet. He fell asleep and didn’t wake up. I can’t seem to catch my breath. I’m not sleeping, barely eating. I’m back to work and I find myself just staring at my walls. Every time I get my mind off of this feeling I’m sucked back into the hurt and the pain and I lose my breath again. I keep grabbing my phone to send him a text, check if he texted me. Keep picturing his face and the way he held me. I’ve lost friends and family members before. I’ve grieved before. This is unlike anything I have ever felt before. I feel like my heart hurts. I keep begging him to come to me in my dreams and he hasn’t. I’m having a really hard time.