Our life was wonderful. We were both 56 and looking forward to our future and enjoying our empty nest. We had made some major life decisions in the prior few years to begin "living our retirement" early by focusing on things that we really wanted to do. That meant selling our large home with a large yard and pool in 2018 and downsizing to a much smaller new home and yard that would require much less time to manage. That freed us up to have more time for doing things that we wanted to do. That led to the purchase of a boat in 2019 and eventually a beautiful condo on our favorite lake in Texas in May 2020. We were so happy and realized that we were blessed beyond our wildest dreams. All we wanted to do was invite friends and family to our lake home and enjoy the boat. We were happy and loved being together more than ever. As 2020 closed out, we both experienced Covid and survived without any problems and felt like we were in a great spot to have a wonderful 2021. We were in the process of contracting for some renovation work on our condo to make it stunning. Everything was in place and then my life exploded. Fast forward to January 2021. We went back to our home city to attend the wedding of our niece (The daughter of my wife's brother and her God-Child.) It was cold, but we didn't care because we were home with family and were going to see everyone. Valerie was going to do a reading and was so happy to be with her family. She and her siblings genuinely love each other. Never a harsh word or negative comment. We made it through the wedding and Val did a great job on her reading and she looked so beautiful in her red dress. The wedding was followed by a few hours where we met with some family at a restaurant and shared some appetizers and drinks while we waited for the reception to begin. Like the wedding, it was wonderful to have that time with family and we were relishing the moment. The reception was great and we had a great time talking with friends and family and wore out the photo booth. It was such a great night. No drinking or wild stuff, just enjoying being home with family and a calm and a peace that is hard to describe. Around 10pm, we were both tired and decided to get home and get a good night's sleep because we had more family time scheduled for the next two days. We returned to my friend's home and got ready for bed. Our last words were about what time we wanted to get up in the morning and then my precious Val drifted off to sleep facing me. I'm pretty sure we said "I love you" but I can't remember for sure. It is all such a blur. I awoke the next morning later than we agreed, so I figured that Val must have been really tired to sleep beyond our agreed upon time. I brushed my teeth and started to get ready and decided that I needed to get her going also. I hated to wake her because she had been going pretty hard and I was happy that she was catching up on her sleep. I called her name and that is when I realized that something wasn't right. The silence was so odd and she was still sleeping on her side. I quickly walked to the bed and put my hand on her to wake her up and felt the most horrible feeling in the world. My baby girl had passed in the night and was so cold. It has been 8 1/2 weeks since I lost my wife suddenly in her sleep. The pathologist I hired to find out what happened told us that she had an "electrical event" in her sleep and she just stopped. No struggle or suffering. It was just like a light switch and when you have one of these events, you just stop. Unfortunately, my entire life stopped with her heart. I built my entire life around her and I hated to be away from her. I have been working at home for the last year and rarely worked at the condo because she could not be there with me. Now, I was without her forever. Since that day, I have been an emotional mess. A good day is just kind of blah, but bad days are horrible. The pain of the loss goes all the way to my soul. I look at all of the wonderful things we had built together and suddenly it meant nothing. New home - big deal, condo overlooking a beautiful lake - not interested, beautiful boat - means nothing without my girl. I have never experienced sadness like this and I can't remember the last time that I was truly happy. I know it was the day of the wedding, Val's last day on earth, but I can't remember anything specific about it other than what I described. I have been reading books on grieving and I know that the future will help me heal my heart, but I'm lost right now and I'm ready to talk to others in my position. The books say you should do this, so I hope that this allows me and others to process our grieving and move forward in a positive and healthy way. I would appreciate any comments that can help me learn how to go about this. Has anyone attempted to do anything on this site or is it better to try to find a group that meets in my city? I am open to anything that is a good fit. Thank you for reading.