My sister, brother in law and 3 year old nephew were killed....

They were killed in a care accident almost 6 months ago. I still break down and cry a lot. The grief just sneaks' up and knocks the wind out of me when ever it wants. My sister was my best friend...I miss her so much. I don't this this hurt will ever get better. At times it doesn't even feel real they are gone and other times it is too real. My niece was not in the car and I just got guardianship over her. Her other aunt and uncle were fighting me for her. My heart aches for her. She lost her entire family in a blink. There is a hole in my heart that will never be filled again....