This happened in 2016. I was 13 back then. There were some issues going on in our family. Not big ones but normal family disagreements. I wasn't the best daughter either. My mother suffered from clinical depression in 2012 but recovered in 2014. Maybe these incidents resurfaced that depression and made her commit suicide. She drowned herself in the river Ganges in a city called Rishikesh that's around 160 km from our house. She went all of a sudden without any suicide note straight away from her workplace. We never found her body. I blame myself for whatever happened because maybe if i had told her how much i loved her the day before she went then she wouldn't have gone because she was the most loving mother ever. Everyone who knew her agreed. I wish i could just say goodbye and sorry and iloveyou to her once.