Lisa Marie, I am so sorry for all you've gone through. On their own those are two such big losses to have to cope with, and together it's just unimaginable, I'm sure, to figure out how you're going to move forward. I am glad you have found this site and I hope connecting with those who understand can be a help to you. Please let me know if we can be a specific help in any way or if you have any questions and please take care~