my Brother Russell always seemed like the happiest person in the world. Always laughing and pulling pranks on people. He shot himself in the head July 21, 2018. He was also my rock. I leaned on him for everything and he was my best friend. I’m just at a loss as to why. And I can’t stop thinking about it, nor do I want to talk to people about it cause naturally they try and make me feel better but I’m just not there.