My mom passed away April 30th of this year. She had been battling endometrial cancer for almost a year. I was her sole caregiver. My mom has away been my best friend, she had lived with me and my fiance and 2 children for the last 10 years. In mid march she was diagnosed with what we thought was pneumonia. She kept getting worse and finally the day before she died we found out the cancer spread rapidly to her lungs. Hospice came the morning she died. It was a very rough day my mom was not herself. She was very confused and disoriented. She was restless and wouldn't sit still. Luckily many family members were here to help me. The last 20 minutes of her life was so horrible she was screaming for me to help her because she couldn't breathe and I felt so helpless because there was nothing I could do. I was on the porch talking to hospice on the phone when I heard my mom yelling loudly. I ran in the house and she was sitting up on the side of the hospital bed. As soon as I got to her she collapsed into my chest. At that time me and my aunt moved her to lay on the bed and I watched her turn blue and held her as she slowly stopped breathing. Watching my mom and best friend die has really messed me up and I'm not sure how to process this. I still feel like it was a bad dream. She cant really be gone.