My wife of 43 yrs passed away within the month of Sept. 2019. I took her in for what we thought was a pinched nerve in her neck Sept. 8th 2019. After Xray and Cat scan we were told she needed to go to a facility that could handle her situation better. Stage 4 lung cancer....... So we went from a pinched nerve to hitting a brick wall..... The cancer had spread from her right lung to liver, adrenal gland and her brain. She never got strong enough for chemo and passed away Sept 30th 2019. I not only lost my wife but lost my soulmate my best friend and partner in life. We are raising our granddaughter after our only daughter passed away 8 years ago. So not only did my granddaughter lose her mother but now she lost her second mother. Why????????????????? It wasn't suppose to go like this. I always thought I ME would go before her. Its kinda strange as you go from so many people coming to pay respects and now the house is quiet with me and my 15 yr old granddaughter. So now I find out her father want's t be a part of her life again and just bought a home in the same school district and wants her to live with him and his fiance. I'm in shock and had a talk with my granddaughter about how she should be happy as I am not her father he is. I love her as my own and always will. The house is far from live in condition and will be a year or so away. Now my mind is wandering as I get older and what will happen as I am now ALONE for once in my life I have NO ONE. My faith has carried me through my daughters passing and will with my wife's passing. It's so hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!