Today was the birthday of my son who would have been 30 years old today. He died when he was 20 I had a daughter died three years ago at age 32 both unexpected I'm having a very hard time getting past the acute grief and I think I'm really having complex grief and it's just hard for me to relate to how anybody can feel what I'm feeling. The pain is Indescribable and wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. Anybody could give me some advice for me to even attempt to even care to go on because I I'm waiting for it to get easier and it's just not.