Lost my sibling to suicide

Discussion in 'Suicide Loss' started by Need to grow, Jun 24, 2018.

  1. Need to grow

    Need to grow Member

    Hi,
    I lost my sibling to suicide less than a month ago. I am angry. I am glad my sibling does not have physical pain anymore, however they left behind so much emotional pain ....

    I want to tell him how much I miss him. I want to tell him that he left pain that he could have healed in his own children. Now, they are struggling.

    I want to tell him that he had value as a person because he breathed. I wanted to protect him and get him away from the bullies at his job. Those idiots were partly responsible for his death.

    I have more emotions than i know how to sort through.
     
  2. Sciguy

    Sciguy Well-Known Member

    Sorry to hear about your brother. While I don't know the details, it is always sad to hear that some people are in such pain (physical or emotional) that they feel their only option is to end it all. It is especially difficult for those left behind...
     
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  3. Need to grow

    Need to grow Member

    Thank you for your support Sciguy. It has been very hard. How are you doing? I do hope you are well.
     
  4. Sciguy

    Sciguy Well-Known Member

    I am as well as can be expected I guess. I still have flashbacks and do not sleep well. Hopefully, this will get better with time.
     
  5. Amberlee

    Amberlee New Member

    I too just lost my brother and I am angry as to why he didn’t reach out to me and left this emotional pain. I am seeking answers myself. I’m thinking of taking therapy or counseling cause I feel as tho my friends don’t understand, they try and cheer me up. And say like “he wouldn’t want you to be sad” and that doesn’t help. I have heard tho to just feel all your feelings as they come.
     
  6. Need to grow

    Need to grow Member

    Hey Sciguy,
    How are you doing? I went through a really hard time and stopped contacting anyone.
     
  7. Need to grow

    Need to grow Member

    I have received the same information. You are not alone.
     
  8. Wenw n6645

    Wenw n6645 New Member

    I lost someone I loved to suicide. I know how much anger that can possess. I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m angry with my friend because she didn’t choose to talk to me. Instead she left without a goodbye. I miss her... I hope you find peace in this struggle.
     
  9. Corrine Hamilton

    Corrine Hamilton New Member

    I'm so sorry for your loss... I'm new to this website but my little brother committed suicide last year on April 3rd and died the 5th. He was only 13 years old and just one of the bright spots in my life. I remember the first month because nothing was more agonizing especially because I'd have to walk by his room eveeytime I went to mine. You just have to keep on going. You will feel like the world is shattering beneath you but let it happen let yourself feel this awful pain. It's the hardest part to work through. You have to except and deal with this pain so you can work through the grieving process. Next year it'll be 2 years and we have already had 2 of his birthdays withoUT him... he would have been 15 today if he was alive. I'm still in awful pain. But not as much. It doesn't get easier bUT it becomes easier to deal with.
     
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