When I first saw my husband there was something about him and he intrigued me. I was a young teenage girl and our love story was one of a kind. He passed away from cancer after fighting so hard for 2 years. He passed away in March but I feel like I have been grieving since day one of his diagnosis. I am a mom and have kept strong and am learning how to be mom and dad now but all of the sudden the loneliness is so real and I feel hopeless and know I will never be ready or find someone who loves and protected me and made me feel like most beautiful special woman in the world as he did. Not seeking that and far from ready but I am a younger widow and I feel like I am 80 and will never find happiness in anything besides my children and they will grow up and I will be alone depressed and unable to deal with life.