I am new to this group but I decided to join because I need to be able to communicate with people that are going through similar things as i am. It makes me angry when people tell me that I need to stop crying and move on because my parents are in a better place. On February 1, 2016 my daddy passed away from cancer and on June 13, 2013 I lost my mother to a stroke. Life has been so hard without them and this pain is just too bear. It has been hard for me because I was with my parents every single day. If my daddy didn't call me about 15 times prior to my lunch hour I knew something must be wrong. My lunch hour I would go and eat with them. After work I would go straight to their house and stay there till late at night and on the weekends I would go eat breakfast with them or we would drive out of town just to get away. I feel so lost without them and I do not know how to cope with this loss. I attempted suicide twice and was finally put on medication for severe depression. They help me cope but they are not as effective as I thought they would be. I still find myself crying alot. Now after i get out of work, I go straight home and I lay in bed. I have no desire to live anymore and I dont want to feel this way anymore. I just want to be able to smile again. Please keep me in your prayers
Thank you for sharing your story, I'm so sorry to hear of all you've lost and all that you're going through. It can be so hard to find people who understand, and I'm confident there are people on the site you can connect with who you can talk to and find support from. To search profiles of others who have lost a parent, you can go to "Make a Connection" and then "Find Others Who Are Grieving". Keep the search criteria general and you'll find you get a lot more options of people to connect with. In the meanwhile, I'm glad to hear you are getting help outside of this site, but please know that for you (and for anyone else) who may at any point feel they are in crisis, please reach out and get help right away. The National Suicide Prevention website has both a phone # to call 1-800-273-TALK and an opportunity to chat live: you can visit their website at: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org From the suicide prevention lifeline website: "Who should use the Lifeline Crisis Chat program? Anyone who is depressed, despairing, going through a hard time, or just needs to talk, including people who are thinking about suicide. Any life issues may be discussed on the Chat program. The chat specialists are here to listen and support you through whatever difficult times you may be facing." I'm glad you've found our site and I truly hope it is a help to you. All my best...
Sorry both of your parents are gone. Mine are too. I hope that eventually your will to live becomes stronger again. It's just occurred to me that maybe my parents don't want me to suffer.
I just lost my mother a week ago. I did everything with her too. I have lived next door to her for about 30 years. I was always trying to do things to make her happy. Life really sucks, please know others understand what you are going through and are here for you. You are not alone, we are your friends and family now
