Reaching out, recently (12 days ago) loss my spouse of 40 years. The deep feeling of sadness and heart break is unbearable some days. Feeling so lost, confuse and scared of life without him. The house is quiet, and I’m alone. ALONE. I have never been alone. I miss so much and at time I can’t believe this happen to me. It's just a bad dream. We loved each other so much. I stumbled on this site as I was searching on my current feeling and wondering if they are normal. This journey is so painful, would not wish on anyone.