Is pretty much how I see it. I guess I may have subcon- ciously thought I'd have family to talk to through this massive life change I not only did not want but never saw heading down the railroad tracks, running every red Board ( same as a red light) Destined to hurt me emotion- ally. What hurts to a large extent is that I am very much expected to be as if nothing ever happen' ed. A freakin dozen reasons to be happy. Like no one wants to even take a chance or the time to talk to their brother or son. Well now I say,"Screw it. I don't want help from the family. Been here 3 months and no one wants to talk to me about things. But will Bore me to death about catholiciszm. I HAD IT.