I knew it as soon as the two state troopers walked into my driveway. My husband was late in getting home from work but I had chalked it up to traffic. Until I saw them pull in front of my house. I thought I'd get a "He's in the hospital" or something. But no. I am sorry ma'am your husband was pronounced dead at the scene. This happened 3/8/2021. We have 3 kids - 10,4, and 2. :'( my heart is a train wreck of emotions and it's already been a month. I'm slowly moving day to day but it is so difficult. My whole being aches. I've been with him since I was 17. We made our world together and came from nothing. I only know one other person, and I don't know her well at all, who has a similar situation. People keep likening it to losing a child or a parent in old age. I know those hold their own types of grief. But I lost my future, my history, my soul mate. We had gone through so much together. I just don't know how I'll move on from this.