I lost my dad in 2010 to suicide and still it feels like it was yesterday. I was better and coping when I was not physically sick but now I am so physically sick and literally have no one. When my dad passed away everyone said they would be here for me no matter what. I have learned over the years I really am alone now and at this point sometimes it hurts so bad it takes my breath away. He was my only living family left. I am 36 years old and feel so unbelievably alone. I lost all of my friends because I got sick. I just miss my dad so much I don’t no what to do with myself. It never used to bother me being alone but now being sick it does and I miss him much. Having no one while fighting an illness is just something’s to painful. I am sorry for all of you for your loss as well.