I lost my husband 18 months ago. Although he had COPD and a few heart problems he really hadn’t been sick. It was the day of our 28th anniversary he was taking something’s out to the scrap metal yard. He left the house and 45 minutes latter the sheriff was at my door telling me my husband had passed away! I relive that day everyday, there were no good byes just gone. We had a large home and yard that was just too much for me to care for so after a year I sold it which was probably a mistake becauseI now feel like I have not only lost my husband but every part of our life. I’m staying with my daughter, which is 2 hours from our home, until I decide what I want to do. The problem is I can’t decide what to do! He was my everything, we made decisions together now I just feel stuck, afraid and unable to move forward. I’m retired so lots of time on my hands and all I do is think. I have no friends here and really nowhere ( especially now during covid) to meet anyone. I just find it hard to care about anything. Thank you for letting me share my story.