I am new to this site, and my loss happened this morning. My best friend of over 30 years, whom I was closer to than own family died suddenly. He has been my rock, my strength and my everything since I was 18. Met in college, and have talked or texted everyday since that time. Back in the day even wrote letters. I am in still in shock, and don’t know why he passed suddenly yet. I just know that overwhelmed, with profound sadness and feel so lost. I have a few friends, but none close by. He was an only child, and his elderly parents are the only ones left. I am close to them, and they think of me as part of the family, and I them as part of my family. Right now I am doing my best to just breathe, and that’s about it. I have worked in hospice for 9 years, but that all goes out the window when it is one so much a part of my very existence. I am looking for support from others, and also to support others. Want to my best to be there for his Mother and Father who are divorced. That’s what he what he would want. It’s hard to ask for help, but here I am asking. I am truly devastated!!