I lost my grandpa a little over 2 years ago. He was my best friend, my hero, he was everything to me. I had taken care of him since I was 17, chose my career path because of his illness so I could take care of him better. Now that he is gone and it has been time, I realize that I never processed it, that I never learned how to cope with the grief. I realize that I never learned how to handle the sudden outbursts of tears. With not getting help with my grief, I ended up ruining a 3 year relationship and losing my new best friend.