The day after Easter 2019 my amazing grandmother passed away. I was super close to her and she is one of the major reasons that I was able to have a full time job after I had children. She graciously paid for their daycare and was available at the drop of a dime to watch them. While trying to grieve her loss, my other grandma passed away in early August 2019. I wasn’t really close to her as she didn’t let anyone get close. However right now I just feel lost. I feel like I’m unable to grieve because these were my grandmas and not like they were my parents. I feel like I’m just supposed to keep living every day and never be sad. All that seems to do is make me very emotional and overly sensitive. I don’t feel that my close friends get this nor does my family and I’m unintentionally causing issues.