I've been going to my husband's resting place more frequently. I'm so glad we chose the perfect place. I've been going right before sundown . Clean off his spot, and tell him a little about my day. Today I took him a Patriotic floral display with the American flag. We always had a flag flying on deck. It's still flying. The other day the storm beat me there and I just sat in car and sobbed. I think it's helping me heal or get better acquainted with my new normal. Even though I have this deep painful gnawing everytime I go. Makes me happy for his place to be pretty. I never knew how bad this aloneness would feel. You know what's coming but your Heart just can't be convinced. Will forever miss the man I married and lived w for 43 years. Life is different. Love you honey. Happy 4th July coming up.