Lost my husband October 5th 2018 after 41 years two weeks before he died found out he was cheating and more there was something wrong with him the change he went though weight gain delusional never slept didn't look the same or talk the same or write the same became abusive and had all control of the money I'm left with no answers and miss who he was I've cried every day since he died I can't do it snymore anymore keeps getting worse try to remember the good times but the bad memories won't let me and nobody to talk to
So sorry my friend. It's strange how life itself seems to play games with us. Everything seems so insignificant at times and going through life in motion is just so strange and unexplainable.