I lost the love of my life in May of 2015. He was 36 and had a sudden heart attack. We didn't even know he was sick. We had been married for 10 years and have 3 children together. Even though it has been almost two year's since I've lost him, things just don't seem " normal". I'm not even sure if that's the right word for what I'm trying to express. I try to be happy. I don't really know. It is just nice to be able to connect with others who can possibly understand how I feel.