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Delayed grief

Discussion in 'Loss of a Parent' started by CarolA, Oct 20, 2020.

  1. CarolA

    CarolA New Member

    So many years ago I lost my darling mum in 1972, I was 20. She was everything to me. I still have so much grief stuck inside me from that time which has been so debilitating for me over the years. I have never been able to let it all out and have felt so scared and ashamed of still having it, I felt so isolated and that no-one was like me or could help me. I have recently started talking about it and reading messages on this site, it has helped me get to the depth of my feelings but it is so difficult to allow myself to have the feelings all the time and painful++. It is hard to have the reality of having lost her. I have pushed everything away for so many years.
    CarolA
     
  2. Silliebillie

    Silliebillie New Member

    I am very sorry for your loss! I appreciate you and having the courage to share your emotions! I no ive heard a million times that with time it will get better. I deeply hear you and feel you! She is still your everything!
     
  3. CarolA

    CarolA New Member

    I was so pleased with your reply and how understanding you are. I never thought anyone would be understanding - ever. I certainly never thought I would get a reply because of my loss being such a long time ago. I have had such a HARD time like a lot of people on this site. At last I am finding kindness and understanding. I recently got the courage to talk to bereavement counsellor here in u.k. who was unpleasant, then a 2nd one, I ended up having to justify myself. I then found this site which is a revelation to me, and have started grief coaching with Karen. I have just had my 3rd one with her - she is the rock I never had. She is kind, caring and absolutely non critical - I really feel I can let out all the awfulness with her. Such a relief it will be. Thank you so much.
    Carol