Yes I still have them, a bit less than a while ago but I have them. Some days or most are o.k. but someone says some- thing I don't like and I get very mad but it does not last long. Probably the biggest thing is an awfull lot of loneliness of ❤ and no one in the family seems to understand what I am going through. Not just the loss of a dainty dearness but the plans, the future we had talked about. I do have things working out for me and that is good but my ❤ and mind were very glad when Sofia was in my life. I have an awfull lot of ?'s that can not be answered and as 'TheyLiv' said, Anger spreads thru a large part of your life." I get mad quicker and hotter than I have in a long long time. and one of my sisters is a good reason for that. Does a nice thing, then tarnishes it abit. Guess I really have to look around for a psychologist or mental expert as this is just too much for me.
it’s comforting to know that i’m not the only one who has mood swings. tiny things trigger my anger and i just lose it. i feel like a teenager all over again and i need to re-learn how to quell my temper. i, too, have a sibling to thank for making me this angry. he was so unsupportive during and after our mom’s sudden massive fatal stroke. i was the one who stepped up and was her hospice caregiver for 8 agonizing days until she finally passed. i’m the one left with ptsd from being her caregiver, but he tells me i’m selfish. i honestly feel like i’ve moved past my grief. but i’m stuck in anger. like you, most days, i’m okay. then there are days that i’m not. i feel like they are less, but they’re still there and i worry that it will end up destroying the good relationships in my life.
Dear leftbehind18, I am so sorry for your loss. It is worse I think when a daughter loses a mom than a Dad because women understand women better. I know I know very little here but it seems your brother has an awful lot of growing up to do. You were there for your Mom. What, aside from being an un- supportong jack-ass was he doing while you were doing your best to help your Mom? Nothing but complain I'd imagine. This was so not the time for him to be an ass but to be loving and helpful. Sadly I would give him an 'F' because he was not there when he damn well should have been. I think you are a gr8 lady, you were there for Mom and so lovingly at that. You did a very good thing in the midst of a deep sadness. God loves you For that. Dear, hang out with Jesus. Tell him your fears and ask him to help you.
