Hi, I'm Caidyn and this is my first post on here. At the end of April, we found out very suddenly that my sister had terminal cancer. A week to the day that she found out -- not even a week for us to know -- she passed away. During that time, I was finishing my first year of graduate school and was unable to see her. I'm about to start my next year of graduate school and can't make it to her celebration of life because of classes. It's all starting to sink in that she's passed. We were never very close in life because we had an age difference of decades, but we always got along. I don't know. I just feel like I never really got a chance to know her and the years that I had were lost. So, I don't know what I'm looking for. Advice? Help? A connection? I know that what I feel is normal -- my first internship for my graduate degree was hospice, so I'm familiar with all the feelings that come with loss and grief and that what I feel isn't abnormal -- but it still feels very isolating. And I don't want to be isolated. Thanks to all who read this.