I lost my Mom almost 5 months ago. She had stage 4 colon cancer but died suddenly from something else. We had to turn off her breathing machine. We were very close and she was a good friend too. I was also her care taker. I can't stop thinking about how she died, looked & the week before she passed. I was so tapped out from the constant care since my sister was away on a trip. I could have been nicer and more patient with her. My God she was 80 yrs old and was a 12 year cancer survivor. I wish I had that week to do over. The pain at times is so much and I seem so angry a lot of the time. I know she's at peace and in no more pain but I can't seem to remember much of anything but her death and the week before. The last 2 months seem worse than the first 3 and I really want to work through this. I just so hard at times.