My husband of 36 years passed away March 5th. He was sick for 15 years and I was his sole caregiver until the end when hospice came in. He was first diagnosed with early onset from to temporal dementia. His behavior changed radically. Than 8 years ago he was diagnosed with bladder cancer which slowly moved throughout his body, attacking and settling wherever it chose. There were times I was so angry at the disease that stole my husband's thoughts and actions I would wish for it to hurry and be done with. But now it is and all I do it seems is cry. We had lived at my daughter's house the last 5 years. My husband begged me to buy my own place after he was gone. I did it so my daughter was free to leave her husband. So....in the last 3 months I lost my husband, lost my 50 year old God daughter to ovarian cancer, moved in a trailer needing much TLC in a nice adult park and my daughter and her teenage daughter have moved to a new house. I stay busy fixing my home and work 5 days a week at my daughter's boutique but I'm so empty, sleepwalking through it all, starting my morning with tears, ending my nights with tears. I don't know how to move forward. I hate leaving my house, I hate being home alone at my house. I feel I'm growing more introverted each day. I live in this empty void and do not know how to stop. Thank you for listening.