First was the woman who basically reared my brother and myself. She passed away from throat cancer. I never had a chance to say goodbye even though I had not seen in her in 17 years. I feel so guilty. The second was my best online gaming friend. He stopped coming online and I knew something had happened. When I eventually found his fb page it sad Remembering.. The shock was so horrible. I'm heart broken knowing I will never see him come online again. There is a hole in my heart. And I don't know if I'll get through it this time.